Thursday, March 10, 2011

Set on Nothing

I am pretty much set on nothing lately.  I keep dabbling in ideas of things I want to do (or be).  But, not much comes of it.

Just like many many other people out there, I don't know what I want to do with my life.  Yep, I know.  Twenty-one years old.  Married. Semi-educated.  Heck, I even moved away from everything I knew in hopes of "finding myself".  Yet, here I am.  Still unsettled.  Still searching for that one thing (or many) that makes me feel accomplished.

But, here's my issue.  As I spend my time thinking of what I want to do I am also wasting my time not doing it.  How do I get out of this circle?

"A goal without a plan is just a wish." -Antoine de Saint Exupery

Think about that for awhile.  I know I have.  I have also come to the conclusion that it is never too late to start something new, to do something new, or to be someone new.  If I have a goal, I need to make a plan and put it into action.  It will be hard.  But, don't you think, after all is said and done, it will be worth it?  

So, this is what I intend to do.  I will be spending some time in thought.  I'm going to write down everything I wish to change or even start.  Then, I will take those wishes, put plans behind them, and turn them into goals.  That way, they will be attainable.

At this point, I can't help but bring up my greatest fear: failure.  But, the more I think about it, the more I run through the realities in my head, I have come to the conclusion that failure isn't even a possibility.  How could I fail at finding my niche.  If I realize something I'm doing isn't working for me, I would just stop doing it and try something else.  That's not failing.  Failing would be to see that something needs to change and not do a thing to change it.

I'm going to end this entry with a quote I saw on my sister's facebook status. It pretty much sums up everything:

If you've got dreams, goals and ambitions, 
you'd better chase them today.  Just in case." -Mark Discoll


To Be Continued...


2 comments:

  1. <3

    We have the same obsessions and same fears. I believe in your emmy-face. I don't think you could ever fail and all your dreams will be actualized.

    also, i miss you.

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